This between him and me is getting worse, we are driving each other crazy and away.
We talked today and we both agreed that this isn't doing any good to us.
I wish I didn't have feelings for him it would make it easier to just be friends.
I want to be his friend and I don't want to loose him, but imagine me as his friend and having to listen to him talking about his wife, his family or that he does find someone else like he found me, even if I do get over these feelings for him they won't go completely there will always be something there.
I'm trying to be just his friend, I really am.
And like when he says we can meet up for dinner or drinks, that's hard to believe that he will do it as he hasn't had the time to see me these last 5 months how will he have the time now? Wish he wouldn't say we could do that, its giving me hope of seeing him again and that's not happening, I would do anything to see him even for 10 minutes, to touch him one last time, to have him make love to me one last time.
Wish he could have those feelings of being close to loving me again but he will never have them again.
Don't know what to do anymore.
We talked today and we both agreed that this isn't doing any good to us.
I wish I didn't have feelings for him it would make it easier to just be friends.
I want to be his friend and I don't want to loose him, but imagine me as his friend and having to listen to him talking about his wife, his family or that he does find someone else like he found me, even if I do get over these feelings for him they won't go completely there will always be something there.
I'm trying to be just his friend, I really am.
And like when he says we can meet up for dinner or drinks, that's hard to believe that he will do it as he hasn't had the time to see me these last 5 months how will he have the time now? Wish he wouldn't say we could do that, its giving me hope of seeing him again and that's not happening, I would do anything to see him even for 10 minutes, to touch him one last time, to have him make love to me one last time.
Wish he could have those feelings of being close to loving me again but he will never have them again.
Don't know what to do anymore.
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